I didn’t realize how upset at my husband I was today until I spoke to him on the phone. I couldn’t muster any of the usual sweet words or jokes
Yesterday, around 4:00 AM I experienced excruciating pain in my lower left abdomen. I couldn’t move because if I did I would have probably lost consciousness. I called an ambulance to take me to the hospital, and I called my parents so they could be with me. My mom got into the ambulance with me and stayed at the hospital until all exams and tests cleared me to go.
All day yesterday, I kept reflecting on how my life changed after my marriage. I feel much more alone then when I was single. While I am happy I found the love of life, I do not particularly like our current predicament; living apart because of his work, and seeing each other every two-three weeks. I come back to an empty home most of the time, I sleep in an empty bed, and the food in my fridge goes bad because, after he leaves, I am left with more than I can eat. I understand it is temporary, and I keep reminding myself of that, but on a day like yesterday, I would have liked to have had him by my side at night when I was scared.
I am frustrated, and since he is at the center of the current situation, I am frustrated with him.